As I logged into blog today I realized something, this is the last time I will be doing that from this computer, tomorrow is my last day as a Catalyst intern.
This whole last week has gotten me thinking about when things end. Somethings end abruptly and something are quite planned. An extra innings baseball game can come to an end with the swing of a bat, while sitting in a class at school ends at the pre-determined time. But no matter what type of end it is, the really meaningful things in life always end bittersweet.
I know the direction I am ment to head in next. I believe I know how I was made and what that means for the future, yet leaving Catalyst is bitter. I love these people and this place, but it is not my future (at least not my immediate future). Throughout this week I have started to think how hard it is going to be for me next week as I get up and have nowhere to go in the mornings. I am trying to plan things to do to keep my mind off the fact that I am no longer at the place that I have grown so attached to over the last several months. And I am not going to even mention anything about what exactly is next, because frankly I just don't know.
I guess what I really want to know is how people deal with things ending. I am rushing off to some other commitments right away, but about Wed. of next week it will hit me hard and I will slip into a brief morning for the life that I no longer have. No more than a few days. Is that healthy? I'm not sure what other possibilities are out there. I know that by the last week of Oct. I'll have picked up and moved on (literally and figuratively), but part of my heart will always be with those people and that place.
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